Monday 31 August 2015

world

Sucker punch knocks out the wind
Life hits.. it stays hit, my friend
Unbearable excruciating pain
Who stands to loose and who's to gain

Expectations make one delusional
Apprehensions are far more practical
Trust is an unknown commodity
Doubt is far more classical

Oh my child, world is so cruel
Where the trend is to shove
Still the best feeling that is
It's beautiful to be in love

Love your heart away, Whistle the tunes
Joyously celebrate, the gamut of cartoons

Sunday 30 August 2015

Blate

Streaming rushes, pictures pass by
Story of an era that's gone by
Memories of extreme pain and pleasure
Forever something that I will treasure

Bolt from the blue, you bestowed
an unexpected gift so invaluable
Stirring emotions hidden thus far
Anything that is, but tractable

Flown away to unforeseen lands
Away from suspecting eyes
Brimming with joyous love
Strong reactions that arise

Painful the separation, Killing is the wait
Oh my dear ..where are you, sit and I blate...

Saturday 29 August 2015

The bear and The moon

Song of an eternal time
Sung by a ballad of fame
Story untold and unheard
Age of a bear and his flame

Eons ago, trees grew tall
Connected world became grove
Lived a Tall Grizzly bear
Joyously and Romping who rove

Night befell, dark as it was
Bear was his usual self
Lightning struck, world alight
Stood before him a shining elf

Son, chosen are you by the creator
Change is in the air
Stumped by the sudden words
Stood a thunderstruck bear

Soothing light caressed him
Sight fell on the moon
Yet..Little did he know
For this was his boon

Night after night, gaze went above
Searching for his inspiration
Smiling upon the moon obliged
Tingling heart, beautiful sensation

One night moon didn't come
Heavy became his heart
Inconsolable was the bear
Yet.. pain was about to start

Night after night, ran up the hill
Searching for his love
More he searched, restless he became
Crazier his mind drove

Sitting on the mount, crying his heart away
Searching for his love, fighting his tears
Praying god fervently, at least for a moment
Paining inside, heart full of doubt & fears

Rest my child, story is yet to behold
Love of bear and the moon is about to unfold

Thursday 27 August 2015

eternal dance


Shadows of the grills
Mushy smell of the rooms
Tales of an age gone by
Uncertainty of the day that looms

Slow hum of the player
Plays the eternal tune
Transports me to a different age
Makes me want to croon

Drawing you closer, Clasping our hands
For we about to start, The eternal love dance
Faces closer, I can feel your breath
Makes me stronger, for the impending death

Age is a number, younger I feel
Years gone by, heart beats for you
Whisper into your ears, away I sing
The sweetest sound that is.. I love you..

Tuesday 25 August 2015

moments


Romantic vibes in crimson hue
Painting the sky is the sun
Am looking and waiting for a cue
Compared to you, there is none

Holding hands, feeling the warmth
Walk we do, away into the sunset
Every new wave hits the shore
Washes away the previous footstep

Hair dances in the soothing breeze
Deep eyes that hypnotize
Sheer touch that electrifies me
Love that I fail to disguise

Time seems an eternity
I take a pause.. Oh dear!!
Future is something unknown..
Loves the moments we spent together

God.. Pause these moments
Pray I do to cast a spell
For without you, life is a living hell


Monday 24 August 2015

effervescence

Essence of spirit that flows
Formless aura that engulf
Shapeless vigour that flows
It is what defines me, myself



This is in response to a Facebook post that asked "Describe Soul in a single word".. My choice "effervescence"

Sunday 23 August 2015

The wait

Deep eyes that dazzle me
Spoketh to me tons of untold stories
Smooth hair flowing like a gazelle
Making me forget about life's glories

Smile that lights up my soul
Laughter that drives away many a fear
Touch that electrifies me.. Transfixed..
You have become my lovely dear

Now I stand with closed eyes..
Behold the mammoth of the ocean
Tears rolling down the cheeks
Unable to control my emotion

Oh my love..where have you been..
Soul and spirit are fading
Spike the life back into me
Enough..I am done with waiting

Right or Wrong



Morning 2 AM
“Click.. Click.. Delta Charlie Oh two Oh one Oh one to ATC…Over..”
“Come in Delta Charlie Oh two Oh one Oh one.. Over..”
“Requesting Permission to land urgently in KIA.. Code Red…Over..”
“ETA .. Over..”
“30 Minutes .. Over…”
“Runway 3A.. Over..”
“Thank you… Over and Out…”

Reminiscing the last 8 hours, I sit like a statue in the plane. There is a lot of hustle and bustle around me, but I am transported to a different dimension. My friend Hamid has his arm in a warm gesture, but today, I am not ready to accept the reality. The gravity of the situation has already killed me and I am already a Ghost.

“Kausalya Supraja Rama….” Plays the traditional wake-up song in every Brahmin’s house in the Agrahara. Bhagyamma was putting the traditional Rangoli in front of the house. Janardhana Sastry was performing his daily Sandhya vandana. Like a hustle, two children run into the Pooja room dressed in their traditional attire. Their bare bodies with the Jannu make them a living form of Vamana murthy, one of the many avatars of the Lord Vishnu. Shankaranarayana (Shanku) was the elder one and was like a father figure to the bubby Krishnamurthy (Kicha). The two boys took their appointed places and started their daily ritual.

I was still staring at the report in disbelief. What if there was a remote chance if this could be false? Being in the elite commando squad, I know that the chance are absolutely ZERO. Slowly for the umpteenth time, tears run down my cheeks. Hamid’s hand pressure increases, clearly trying to comfort me. 

“ETA 10 minutes.. Get Ready…”

The two boys grow up in traditional Brahmin household, combining their studies and vedic studies. Quickly, the built up quite a reputation of being the role models in the agraharam. Bhagyamma and Janardhana Sastry couldn’t have been more prouder… For Kicha, Shanku was all he wanted to become.. For Shanku, Kicha was more of a kid than brother.. There was brotherly love, fatherly respect between them…

Knowing that duty comes first, I go through the checklist. Trying the never tried before, we all go through the safety checks again. Elite team of 8 commands with me as their leader was something never planned for the kind of operation before. We all get into our respective vehicles, boring into the umpteen darkness that lies beyond the door. Hearts pumping and Adrenaline increasing, we all await for the proverbial orange light. Darkness holds so many secrets to be unraveled.

Shanku fell head over heels on Sharadha, his mama’s daughter. Stealing glances, the adolescence and hormones egged him on. He had confided in Kicha who was very happy for his role model. Tragedy struck Shanku when Sharadha’s marriage was fixed with another groom. Unable to express his love or the disappointment, he receded into a shell and became a part of his former self. Kicha noticed the sadness in Shanku, but was bound by his promise to him. Kicha told Shanku to consider his career, but clearly something had changed in Shanku’s mind and slowly, he made up his mind. He wanted to go away from Agraharam and expressed his desire to pursue higher education far away from home. Janardhana Sastry’s world was changing and he was at cross-roads not wanting to hurt his son’s desires. Reluctantly, they agreed for Shanku to join NDA and continue his education.

“ETA 30 seconds..”

The dreaded orange light and the horn start beeping. The door starts receding slowly and we know that the plane is on the runway. The runway starts becoming visible and the black tar with the florescent lights against the dark sky await us. The door becomes a ramp and we get a green signal.. Go.. Go.. Go… We rev up our engines and slowly start accelerating our bikes. Slowly, the bikes start coming out of the rear door in pairs.. My friend Hamid is just in front of me and I close my eyes, let a slow prayer go, touch my left shoulder and kick my engine..

Shanku excelled in academics, but what surprised most was the ability of the diminutive Brahmin at extremely physical tasks. To get his mind over Sharadha, Shanku started building up an impressive body and started making strides within the Army. Impressed by his intellect and skills, he was recommended by his platoon commander to the elite commandos. Shanku met with a lot of other boys of his age and slowly they formed a closely knit group and bond between them went beyond brothers. 

In the meantime, Kicha grew up to be a studious boy and was enrolled in Medical College. Janardhana Sastry was ecstatic over the progress of his two sons and thanked Shriman Narayana at every opportunity. Kicha was good at studies, but hormones hit him the moment he saw Neha. Stealing glances, he was in love with Neha. Life seemed beautiful and sky was painted in a hue of deep red.

“Comm Check..” “Check…”
 “Time to target 1 hour..”
 “Let’s rock and roll boys ..”

Vroom Vrooom… The engines kicked in full power.. The bikes were floating on the black tarmac.. We got out of the VIP gate of the airport, unseen from common eyes.. All one could see was 2 neat rows of bikes with a leader in the behind. As we approached the exit of the Airport Road and joined the road leading into the city, the heart pumping got faster and engines were working overtime. 9 bikes speeding in excess of 150 kmph and in a neat formation was impressive.. Except there were no watchers as the roads had been cleared and it was 2.45 AM in the morning. 

“Captain.. Captain..”
“Yes”
“There is an emergency.. You are requested..”

My mind went to the conversation that was about to change my life forever.

“Captain .. Come in….At ease..”
“There is a situation in a resort close to Bangalore… We need your team… Plane up in 3 hours.. Whatever information you require are in this file.. Leader is wanted dead or alive”
“Yes Sir…”
“This is a special situation.. You see everything is very discreet… So you take your best men.. Let’s say a lot of vested interests are in this operation..”
“Yes Sir..”
“That shall be it.. Good luck…”

I place a call for an urgent team assembly and walk towards my office. I open the file and start reading the contents.. And stopped dead in my tracks..

Love does wonders to one’s heart. Kicha had a beautiful life going all along and Neha, his muse was the perfect wife he was looking forward. One day, taking courage, Kicha went and proposed to Neha. Neha was blushed, but was embarrassed. She was already in a relationship and though she admired Kicha, she politely declined the offer.

Kicha had been brought up in a loving household and was able to handle this heart break. He focused all his energies on his studies, though he couldn’t take his heart out of Neha. He became a silent admirer and a reluctant introvert. Life seemed mundane and routine, until one day. Early morning, he finished his Sandhya Vandana and was walking towards the library, when one of his friends came running up to him. The news shattered him that he just stood like a statue. Neha had died… WHAT !!!!

Kicha couldn’t believe his ears. His friend was shouting out to him, but he couldn’t hear.. His whole world and the whole reason of his existence ceased to live. After a lot of physical shaking, he came to his senses. Tears in eyes, he enquired what had transpired. She had died of Drug Overdose.. What … This can’t be happening… When? How?.... Apparently, her boyfriend was rich and had friends all around.. A birthday party had turned into a horror when Neha was administered with what became a fatal dose..

Kicha collapsed… He became a living corpse. Shanku didn’t have an iota of inkling of what was happening in his brother’s life. The calls had become sporadic with Shanku’s promotion to captain and Kicha focusing more and more on his studies. After the 11th day, Kicha woke up, had a bath. That day, he was very ferocious in his pooja.. A steely determination had taken birth in his mind… He did the unthinkable.. He took the plunge that no one expected to take…

WHAT.. This can’t be happening.. Is this report true? Thousands of questions were popping in my mind.. The whole world around seemed spinning. The report was about a top vigilante who had become very notorious leader, Christian DeMute. He had built an impressive record of his hatred towards the wealthy, which didn’t go down well with the powerful. I read and re-read the report multiple times. As I reached office, my world had shattered and was looking into those deep black eyes of Christian DeMute

That seemed a long time back, considering that we were 10 minutes away from our destination. Parking our bikes, we took a hilly trek with our Gear. This was routine for all of us having done this much earlier multiple times. Yet, the mission we have embarked upon this time was different. This wouldn’t ever happen again in my life and this was a life-altering decision. Hamid came to me and asked..”Captain… Are you sure…” I said, “Yes.. Hamid

We moved in stealthy and took up our positions.. The Vigilante camp resembled a rowdy gang of college kids.. They were in fact college kids not long ago, but were sucked into this group due to one reason or other. We checked our targets through periscopes. My sight was solely on the leader, Christian DeMute. He looked very reserved and lost in thoughts. The eyes looked dead, but were all too familiar for me.

“Snip..” “Snip..” “Snip…” The night sky was lit up by the barrage of bullets flying from different directions. Before the group could fathom what hit them, the whole group was decimated. The leader was killed by a single shot right in between the eyes.

The commando team moved towards the slain group to take stock. 15 vigilantes were shot dead. The leader’s face seemed serene in death. I walked up to him, closed his eyes and started breaking down.

I am Capt. Shankar Narayana Sastry. The dead corpse of Christian DeMute was none other than my kid brother, Krishnamurthy Sastry. Neha’s death had forced him to become a vigilante and he had taken a personal pledge to eradicate the rich who flaunt their wealth around. The wealthy who were the reason for the death of his dear Neha.

I silently gaze into the face of my kid brother. I had fired the bullet right into the place where I used to keep the kumkum after our Sandhya Vandana everyday in our childhood.

Who is right and who is wrong? Me for having done my duty .. Or my brother who tried to correct a wrong in the society.. Torn between the question, I stand with the dead body of my Kicha… 

Disclaimer: This is purely a fictional story that came into my mind exactly this way. If there is any resemblance to earlier piece of work, please do leave a comment and I will take remedial actions.

Silence

Doubts crop up like ten headed monster
Conclusions run amok and abound
Dark clouds soar over the sky
Endless loops in my mind astound

Hustle of the leaves, dripping water
Eternal bless and unending serenity
Pondering about the principle..I am at a loss
Wonder if I lost ..my identity

Emotion says don't worry it will be alight
Put me out of the misery.. consider my plight
The self wishes to ascend again
Spirit readies to soar away.. high and bright

Saturday 22 August 2015

Spark

Light the fire inside you
For you are the proverbial spark
Radiate the world all around
Beat and drive away the dark

Alluring is the sphere
Love is all around to be found
Silly you are to be in saddness
Foolish to be sorrow drowned

Fire.. Know yourself .. for you are
The proverbial illuminating element

Friday 21 August 2015

Random musings

Looking at you, my heart skips a beat..
For without you, I am incomplete
Inspiration you are, to my soul
For you are the one, who makes me whole


The muse

The lover asks, who are you?
His heart suddenly feeling light
Unknown to him, an angel had entered
Whose face burns shining bright

Shine of her eyes, Color of her dress
Smell of her flowers, Touch of her hand
Sheer presence electrifies the environs
Feels like a fairy with a magic wand

Here I sit penning this...
With absolutely no clues
Oh lord !! Poet had become the lover
Wondering when she became his muse

Thursday 20 August 2015

dreams

Aim to be different and influential
Make a difference in someone's living
Thinking about, taking the plunge
Is a very good beginning

Push yourself to go beyond
For a life exists beyond the possible
Shout your dreams aloud to yourself
Determined, you become unstoppable

Dreams.. Dreams.. drivers of life
Determine what you become and what not
Fill your living, Life is beautiful
Remember.. True happiness can't be bought

Air

Brief moments I spend with you
Makes my heart feel light
You came as a gentle breeze
Away I go as a flying kite

Connections are made by the air
Emotions connected by a thread
The smell of the flowers
Makes me go crazy in the head

Air you breathed touches my skin
Sharing my space, you are my beau
Can I just take all this in
Inhaling you encourages my heart to grow

Wednesday 19 August 2015

The lift


The doors of the lift parted
little did i know so did my heart
For inside was a lovely angel
whose smile killed me part by part

Everyday nod seemed routine
Yet today seemed something different
For today she gave me a smile
Did she acknowledge me.. it felt brilliant

Mission of life was to catch that glimpse
Used melt away like a candle on fire
Days when my angel didn't turn up
Turned me into a pretty bad crier

Mustering courage one day I told her
Angel, my heart beats for you


Wait.. What happened next ...

As I lie in coffin and touch the barren ground
My heart is full.. I told her I love you
Struck by lightning in the very heart she was
God told me Son, We need you..

Tuesday 18 August 2015

dream or reality

Fall I did on the ground
Breath knocked away from my inner guts
The look of her eyes drove me crazy
When I feel in love, I never realized

Pursue I did, to an endless bottom
Waiting for the proverbial eluding chance
Now and then, the heaven's used to open
Giving me the one fleeting moment of her glance

Wake up.. Wake up.. Where are you...

Eyes shut I sit, tired to no end
Wondering what happened was true..
No matter how much I tried I couldn't 
Muster enough courage to say, I love you..

Khat - Unnamed Author

Purani ek Kitab mein
Ek khat mili hai

Beete palon ki ismein
ek dhun bani hai
Iski Likhawat mein
Meri zindegi quiad hai
Bhool gaye jo humein
Woh ankhein chupi hain

Likhi thi kuch batein
tujh se jo judi hai
Kai shikayatein ismein
Jo kahi nahi hai
Aaj budhe dhadkan mein
Teri sharart jawan hai

Phati si is kazaz mein
Ek kahani mili hai

Nisha

Nisha...the night.. take me away with you
For you have the eternal bliss I seek for
Hard are the ways of the man.. am defeated
Its salvation that my heart yearns for